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hypatia238 | Do you feel uncomfortable with feeling vulnerable and letting go and falling in love? |
ikja | Yes. I definitely put up a front. I act like I don't care, but really I do; and it sends out confusing messages to the other party. However, I'm scared of things going wrong. The other person knowing the intricacies of my life, just how sensitive I am and then being put off or using it against me. I've only ever allowed myself to fall once, because I thought I could trust the person. Knew him a very long time, he grew up with me. That ended in heartbreak that I'm still trying to recover from. Feels like he ran off with the intimate parts of myself. Stuff that no body knows. |
SaturnFan | I have a t-square (Pluto opposite Moon, Venus squares both in the middle). Slightly different, but the answer to your question is still yes. |
hypatia238 | quote: Originally posted by ikja: Yes.I definitely put up a front. I act like I don't care, but really I do; and it sends out confusing messages to the other party. However, I'm scared of things going wrong. The other person knowing the intricacies of my life, just how sensitive I am and then being put off or using it against me. I've only ever allowed myself to fall once, because I thought I could trust the person. Knew him a very long time, he grew up with me. That ended in heartbreak that I'm still trying to recover from. Feels like he ran off with the intimate parts of myself. Stuff that no body knows.
Sorry to hear...I hope you open up again, its better to experience love without attaching ourselves to an outcome and allow ourselves to feel. |
ikja | I think it is too. For me, I just can't trust that people can handle the depths of my feelings. I don't neccessarily think it's about the the other person expressing love like I do, but I definitely don't feel comfortable sharing certain things, so when I do and the person goes, it's too deep for me. |
charlie | I will answer for someone I know with this aspect: yes. This person once suffered from a broken heart due to a cheating partner. That was 12 years ago and the scar is still there. Walls are up and come down SLOOOOOOWLY, only to come back up when fear of rejection is looming. Feelings run very deep but are hidden behind concrete. |
hypatia238 | I hope you guys find this song liberating and is a source of healing: http://vimeo.com/43444347 You'll be given love You'll be taken care of You'll be given love You have to trust it Maybe not from the sources You have poured yours Maybe not from the directions You are staring at Twist your head around It's all around you All is full of love All around you All is full of love You just ain't receiving All is full of love Your phone is off the hook All is full of love Your doors are all shut All is full of love! All is full of love, all is full of love All is full of love, all is full of love |
peony | quote: Originally posted by charlie: This person once suffered from a broken heart due to a cheating partner. That was 12 years ago and the scar is still there.
As I understand it, to Venus-Pluto betrayal cuts very deep. It feels like dying. |
ikja | quote: Originally posted by peony: As I understand it, to Venus-Pluto betrayal cuts very deep. It feels like dying.
I've definitely died. |